明白但不能體諒

有一位middle adulthood的病人，他進院看腸胃專科。
他的脾氣真的非常不好。

我學過，這是grief的一種。
Grieving，因為他失去了健康。

他動不動就破口大罵，我可以明白。
因為anger是grief的第二的階段。

我了解他那樣暴躁的行為，
但是我真的很難不被他影響。

看來，體諒是我接下來的目標。

我們

喜悅。

Diverged roads

Drawing above is a composition of Ming and it shows exactly the feeling I have lately.
Especially after I heard a sentence from her, my recently-good-friend.

Loyalty or experience? Easy or busy?

ICU posting

Today will be my last day in ICU, if the following schedule I am not assigned to this department again.

There are too many to learn in a day. I feel very tired (mentally) even only the names of the machines and devices. ICU is so different from Medical-surgical wards.

Life supports, inotropes, detailed until 1ml of fluid also cannot afford to miss out.
Patient's from tip of the hair till the nail of the toe are yours, this is what we called as 'Holy nursing care'.

So far, I am still very into this department. Especially come to patient's family members.
The way to convey message and understand their grieving process.





Dined in Garden lifestyle store and cafe.
Photo taken by Ming.

美好的回憶|現實的殘酷

只能說今天太多stimuli刺激我了。

怎麼辦？完全沒有頭緒。我不要那樣……



我要繼續找還是放棄那渺茫的機會？

媽媽說：“那也不一定是壞事”，難道我真的該放下自己？



腦裡滿是回憶，心中浮現了旋律。

“說了再見卻發現再也見不到 我不能就這樣失去你微笑……”





在Hoe Moi + Chung Han 的結婚儀式（被拍到）



5年前的我說過：“我要在10年後結婚！”

現在的我說：“看起來再另一個十年吧……”

我的歌單

又學著新歌……

Mandy Moore 的 Only Hope，超好聽的。
Olivia Ong 的 You and Me，也是正學著的歌～

我喜歡充滿音樂的世界！

Management Nursing

Started my very first management posting last Monday, 28th February 2011. As it is still new to me, I was tagged with the in charge of the shift. I am very happy that all the in charge I tagged to are very friendly and super willing to teach me everything they know. These days I was working happily due to the conducive learning environment I had.

What are the things that in charge do?
* Ward rounds to check on patients for complains and health progress
*Follow Dr.'s ward rounds to know the plans and changes made
*Admission, transfer in and out, discharge and home leave processes
*Liaise with other departments for procedures planned for patients


I am happy that management (in charge) is my cup of tea. I love to be the in charge but not the writing and passing report parts. I dislike writing and talking in fast speed. ^^

Thanks to Suhana, Diana, Liza and Erin helped me to learn and absorb as much as I can!

Random Updates

Last few weeks I was busy dealing with few main assignments, which carried quite some weight.
Community Health Nursing assignment, Research assignment and Malaysian Studies assignment. Fortunately, I have whole bunch of course mates always being very understanding and helpful.

Credits to Visalini, Wan Nor Ainni, Choo Ming Ming, Chong Min Huei, Cheah Yi Jun, Amy Tan, Cheok Ai Li, Engina Low, Vemala and Banupreah. They did great job and tolerated me throughout the process.

I am now in a more relax mode! Yeah!





Attached an ugly photo of mine to entertain you!

Happy weekend, all!

Answered Prayers

I've been waiting for the call for more than 2 weeks.
A call that tells me: "Congratulation, Hsin Ni. You are selected to be involved in the musical!"

Since the week before CNY, I carried my cellphone along and it almost grow roots on my right hand. Unfortunately or maybe fortunately, it hardly rings.

After the duration of 2 weeks, I have accepted the fact that I am not selected to be one of the actress in the musical. Hmm, I can't understand, I asked for a busy life but it turns out nothing.
I was wondering, is it fortunate or not.

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For my Nursing life,
I pray for good schedules and arrangements.

Ming, Huei, Banu and me always wish to get a chance to have a management training at our own hospital, TMC. Months ago, everybody keeps telling us: "We will try our best to arrange four of you to TMC for management posting." We never lose our faith in them. We believe they will do their best for us.

After the management posting schedule has published, we felt disappointed and underwent few grief stages, the anger, bargain and acceptance. I don't want SMC~

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Today, I went home early with the help of Huei.
I slept for few hours and awaken by the stimulation on my olfactory sense, food!
After wash up, I saw my cellphone shows 'You have 10 missed calls'.

Oh, what happened?
Suddenly 3 people were searching for me.
I called back one by one and all of them were good news for me.

1. I am selected.
2. My management posting will be at TMC!




Thanks! Thanks to all related people!
I'll make sure I will cherish all I have with zero complain.

Thanks for giving me chances.
Thanks for letting me to grab my chances.
I am happy that my efforts gained rewards.

她的愛

她說，
他是她的理想中的男人。
有魄力、有非凡的領導能力。

時常懷念著當初經常聯絡的時候。
懷念著一起成為一個節目組的時候。
懷念著他把她的名字寫得沒有事物能夠媲美。
她會不經意的表露出想念的笑容。

過了一段時間，
他的好，他的笑，
她依然念念不忘。

終於，
在一個聚會上他們再一次相見。

但是，
人事已非。
他好像變成了陌生人。

他……

她說，
美好的回憶與現實的事實在開戰。
不知那一邊會取得勝利。

觀看搞笑片都想哭泣。
心脹好像不再有規律的跳動著。

他讓她受傷了。
她為他受傷了。